September 24th, 2003

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Transformations

I think it's safe to say that what makes furries "furry" is our desire to actually transform into an animal or some anthropomorphic likeness. It could be a permanent change or for just a little while. Some can achieve that by putting that desire on paper through stories or art. Some play RPG's to let that desire be manifested through character development. For me, I have always wanted to achieve that goal through fursuiting. I remember seeing a full-body Chewbacca costume when I was in high school and drooled over it for months (yes, I cleaned it up *LOL*). When Sabot came in the mail back in March, I remember giggling uncontrollably while putting it on. I had achieved that life-long dream. It is clear from my previous posts that Sabot has now become an integral part of my life. Slowly my life is starting to revolve around fursuit performance. At the same time I am feeling as happy as I have I have ever been since leaving college.

Yesterday, my raccoon head finally came back from Realms of Enchantment. There had been some problems obtaining the fur to modify it. Of course, the first thing I did when I got home was to try it on. It fits much better now. I figured I would go ahead and try on the entire suit again to get the full effect. With the head still on, I put on the body suit. I began to quiver with anticipation. It felt like I was putting on a second skin, not fabric. On went the foot paws. My breathing quickened. Finally the hand paws were donned. I looked into the full length mirror and began shaking. I was staring at the reflection of myself, a beautiful, wonderfully funny, anthropomorphic raccoon. Not a bit of flesh was exposed. Just gorgeous fur. It was almost a more intense experience than when I first put on the bear, and it wasn't the first time I had put on the raccoon either. I don't know what it was, but it was an incredible experience. I think it's just the feeling of achieving a new form. I had a similar feeling when albear let me try on his fursuit. If it was a movie, I would have seen lights whizzing past my head to signify some magical transformation. I told saharalion last night that I wouldn't be surprised if I purchased another 2 fursuits by the end of the year. It truly has become a calling to me with money as no object (within reason). It is my outlet. It allows me to be my true self. Hmmm. An interesting statement. Becoming something else to be my true self.
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    "Wild Wild Life"---Talking Heads
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Corduroy the Bear

*cries* I just opened today's paper and there on the front page of the local section is a big picture of Corduroy the Bear, the incredibly cute fursuit that I was asked to wear last week but didn't because I went to Socorro instead. I don't regret doing the Socorro gig, but the suit looks soooooo cuddly. And the suiter is giving a little girl a hug. That could have been me. Wah.