Not only did I play "Ball" the latest cd by the above named group last night, but it sort of sums up the way I'm feeling. I know that people that have true panic attacks can't even function. For me there is a nagging nervousness that's constantly running up and down my spine. I woke up at about 4 and my brain was instantly filled with unsettling thoughts. As much as I need to work today, I have this desire to just chat with people for reassurance. I need to find a safe place and snuggle up with someone. Maybe it's just stress that I'm not getting things done and instead wasting my time getting drunk and chatting. Yeah, the solution is obvious, but implementing it is another thing. Coming home to an almost empty house(the cat and dog are there), the computer and a bottle look very attractive.
I did make my favorite meatloaf last night. The prep time was long, but the end product is always worth it. I did get a call from my sister. I hope she has FINALLY gotten the asshole out of her life. It sounds like she's getting back with an old bf who I really liked. I always thought they should have gotten married. Maybe they will finally. I also missed another call by sonicblu I'm not sure if I missed the call because I was in the shower, passed out, or if Verizon decided to kick it to voicemail immediately again. shit. I also got my weekly "Coon Call" from tenax I want to hear what happened on chat after our call.
O.K. I'm gonna try to get some work done, but if the walls start closing in, I'm chatting. I need a massive dose of furry love right about now.