Last night I tried to get a garden planted but was interrupted by dexter_fox who told me that carol_kitty had been in yet another car wreck. I called her up and she was understandably very shaken. I tried to calm her down in my usual papabear fashion. After I hung up with her I had this feeling like I just didn't care anymore. This was a major "WTF moment" since here is one of my dearest friends in a time of need, and I just wanted to turn off the phone and crawl into a martini.
Later in the evening when I was looking through LJ, I noticed someone had unfriended me and essentially said goodbye to LJ. My response mentally was "don't let the door hit you in the ass on the way out." I typed a very brief reply and went on my way. It bugged me since that's not who I am or who I want to be, but it reflects my current state of mind. I went through this several months ago. My batteries are empty. They just need a recharge. And as I saw this morning, just a few nice words with friends help charge me up. This is NOT a pity troll to get you all to write comments. Please don't feel like you have to say something. Those "please hug me" posts piss me off. There, see. Mr. Non-caring bear. If people feel they need a hug, then they should be given one if it helps. Gah! *tail chase* I had better stop while I'm ahead. My paw has been in my maw enough already.
BTW, I did get my garden planted. Outside of the peppers and tomatoes I really wanted to grow, I threw in some old corn, bean, carrot, and cucumber seeds that I had laying around. I really don't care if they come up or not. It's just nice to grow stuff.